I wasn't spawned from a computer, just raised by one.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Death or Glory

"...From every dingy basement on every dingy street

I hear every dragging handclap over every dragging beat

That's just the beat of time-the beat that must go on

If you been trying for years-then we already heard your song...

How death or glory becomes just another story..."

"Death or Glory" by The Clash (but I must say I love Social
Distortion's version)


I don't know I guess I always expected something different, something more. Like once I got "out of the house" that I'd feel...better.

What I feel is awkward and scared. Have I made the right decisions? Do my decisions even matter anyway? If I was still in high school then I would be halfway through "the school year", a period of time that had previously always seemed distant, unattainable. My days counted out in tally marks on a prison wall. All the other years it took what felt like years to get to Christmas vacation, this year it took seconds. After all, I just graduated seven months ago yesterday.

Everyone always talks about how the moment high school is over everything starts moving at light speed, the years just melt into one another until you have no idea where the time went. I thought it was an exaggeration, some bullshit that parent's tell their children to scare them into enjoying the time that they felt they personally squandered...it's not. And what have I done with mine?

I feel the itching in my skin, my fingers twitch, I can barely keep my legs still. From anticipation? Maybe. From anxiety? Definitely. I can feel this need building up inside of me, but I don't know what it's for.

Friday, December 19, 2008


Christmas vacation, you are mine at last.

Goodbye to Mr. _____ and his "nudie" models, how I will miss checking out your bum thee.

Goodbye to Mr. _____, even if his painting of the woman with a pig face tied to a chair sort of freaked me out when I Googled his artwork at the beginning of the semester. You're rad and I'm glad I have you again next semester.

Goodbye to Mr. _______ and your little asides that no one seems to get but me and two kids who sit in the back.

Goodbye to Mr. _____ and his overuse of the word "delicious". (For example, my CD jacket design project: "This is some seriously juicy work. These graphics are just delicious.") You make me giggle, Sir, and I will miss your class and our impromptu "field trips" to YouTube.

Goodbye to Mr.-Super-Duper-Adorable-Redhead that works at the school store, and who I wish I had the nerve to smex silly talk to. Thanks to you I've probably gained five pounds in soda pop. Also, I love how the same day that I finally actually talk to you, as in more than the usual "Hi, How are you?" "Good, and you?" routine, I learn that you will no longer be servicing the school store and by extension no longer um...servicing... my bored and idling brain. Alas, I shall oogle you no more.

*Yes God, I can hear you laughing at me up there. You are NOT funny. All I'm asking is for you to throw me a bone every now and then, as many chuckles as you get out of me I don't think it's that much to ask. I know I don't have a shot with Red, but do you have to take away my eye candy?*

Where was I....Oh yeah...Goodbye to computer meltdowns, to Trojan viruses that attacked my hard drive three days before finals rendering me unable to get to any of my work.

Goodbye to printers that you literally have to give a good swift kick to get to work Where is the Fonz when my English paper is due in T minus 3 seconds and the printer is just spewing blanks because some newb has clogged it up again?

Goodbye to graphite stained fingernails, and to extended deadlines. I still don't have my computer fixed and have stooped to borrowing the roomies.

I think tonight I will go to sleep and stay that way for more than four hours for the first time in a week. Tomorrow I'm going to do some Christmas shopping and start packing to go to my sister's. I'm going to cuddle those nephews as much as I can while they still let me. (Even if they insist on beating me up first...)

I don't know how busy the next few days are going to be so in case I forget to mention it later I hope that everyone gets what they wanted, but more importantly I pray that everyone has a happy - and safe - holiday.

Merry Christmas and whatever it is you celebrate let the sentiment be the same. <3

Monday, December 15, 2008

Check Out My New Banner And What Not!

First off, remember how I walked into a pencil sharpner last Tuesday? Well this is what it looks like now:

In case you were curious... I realize now that if I ever get married everyone is just going to assume he beats me. "Oh...I...tripped and hit a pencil sharpner..."

"Likely story, Ma'm."

I'm feeling pretty productive...tired, but productive. Finals are this week and then I'm going up to my sister's house for Christmas and I cannot wait!

Lucky for me, end of quarter doesn't seem to be hitting me as hard as most seeing as I've been routinely watching the sunrise for the past few weeks so it's not killing me that finals mania is in full swing - the up side of insomnia? Maybe...maybe O.o I'm not too concerned though. I know enough by now that I'll crash out eventually, until then I might as well ride it out in fashion.

For example, I wrote a 900 word paper, argumentation in APA format thank you very much, in a little over three hours, a 700 word one in a little under one hour, checked out my teacher's ass for what has to be the four millionth time (and I don't even have that class today *wink*) and then drank a peppermint white chocolate mocha from Starbucks and giggled a bit to myself when it reminded me of some scenes from Zack and Miri Make A Porno. De-licious.

I then took my English final in 53 minutes and spent the rest of the time in the computer lab making this awesome banner for my blog:

Knowing that I couldn't put it up quite yet, since it clashes with my Christmas vibe, I altered it into what should appear at the top in my header. I'm quite proud of them.

Oh and did I mention I saved a turtle from near certain death on the highway yesterday?

Life is good, my friends. Life. Is. Good.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

It's One Of Those Days...

Do you know the kind I'm talking about?

The kind where you were suppossed to wake up nice and early so you could get everything you needed done before driving to your parent's house to see relatives you haven't seen in a very long time, who have decided to drop by unannounced at the last minute...only to wake up at 12:15 p.m.

The kind of day where you rub the sleep out of your eyes only to have one of your contacts flop out of your eye and land God only knows where.

In which you then are unable to get the other contact out so after 10 minutes of clawing at your eye socket, leaving it a bright, angry red color, you just decide to leave it there and pop a fresh one in the other eye.

Where you then hop in the shower only to learn after you get out that your darling puppy snuck in and stole the underwear you set out to change into once you were finished.

Where after a series of unfortunate events ranging from a man crashing into your parents property line fence to having to go twenty minutes out of your way because of a road block you finally get to see your cousin, a girl a little under two months older than you who at one point in your life you were extremely close to until she moved away, is still taller, skinnier, and prettier than you could ever be and you realize that the two of you have virtually nothing to say to each other after having not been in the same room with one another for over two and a half years.

You know...that kind of day? Well, it's been one.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I Just Shamelessly Ate A Pint Of Cookie Dough Ice Cream...

I'm having an awkward day so instead of actually posting about it I stole this Christmas survey from Saylor Days in hopes that in might put me in the Christmas cheer.

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I LOOOOVE wrapping paper. My mom got lazy one year so I actually wrapped my own presents….and everyone elses. It’s like origami for Jesus!
2. Real tree or Artificial? No tree this year it would seem, but it’s artificial. It’s easier, reusable, and I have allergies. >.< *
3. When do you put up the tree? Last minute. >.<
4. When do you take the tree down? February >.<
5. Do you like eggnog? I do but it’s so strong. I usually buy a small bottle and then sip at it for a few weeks.
6. Favorite gift received as a child? Either my nintendo, my first cd player/boom box (from my brother and sister), or my Virgin Mary necklace.
7. Hardest person to buy for? My dad. The man literally wants nothing.
8. Easiest person to buy for? Rachel.
9. Do you have a nativity scene? …I would like one. Does that count?
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Neither… >.<
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Hmm. I’m not sure. I do hate gift cards.
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? All the clayamation movies…though they do start to blend together.
13. Hey! there's no 13 here! I am soooo NOT going to renumber this thing.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No. I’m a pack rat.
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? My dad’s ham steaks. It is the shiz.
16. Lights on the tree? Of course. Two threads: colored and white.
17. Favorite Christmas song? Silent Night
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? We usually stay home, but all the fam is going to my sister’s house in Georgia.
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Rudolph, Dasher, Donner Blitzen, Prancer, Vixen, Cupid, Comet….?
20. Angel on the tree top or a star? We have three. Two angels (one white and one gold) and a star. The white angel goes up on the tree, but I always put the star and the golden angel on the mantle so they don’t feel left out.
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Morning all the way.
22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? The fact that everyone goes so crazy and over the wrong stuff.
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I like the little balls that have Christmas scenes inside them, Santa and Mrs. Claus ornaments are always a big hit. I also have this really great ornament that has a bunch of elves all bent over a pool table playing 8 ball.
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I’ll say it again: Dad’s. Special. Ham.
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? A camera or a video ipod.
26. Who is most likely to respond to this? Kristina P. She’s the queen of the blogosphere.
27. Does Santa wrap your gift or leave them unwrapped? Forget Santa. I wrap them.

*this (>.<) is my doh! face.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

10 Things I Can Not Say No To...

In no particular order:

1. A bubble bath complete with candles/incense and my favorite CD.

2. Anything that comes out of my nephews' cute little faces.

3. Furry creatures.

4. Themed movie marathons.

5. A brown eyed boy. ;P

6. An afternoon nap

...possibly with said brown eyed boy. *shifty eyes* A girl can dream, can she not?

7. A second helping of my sister's ooie gooie this Christmas.

8. Vader. (Well, I can say it, just...nothing happens.)

9. Procrastination. Which is why I'm writing this list rather than doing my English paper.

10. Sticking my feet up on the back of the theatre seat in front of me. (When no one is in that row, of course.)

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